dandyelise said: I saw your rvb post about Agent Florida and his hair and I just want to let you know that you can draw braids and profiles very well and that I love your headcanons.

Oh my goodness, thank you so very much. I treasure this in all ways possible.

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Agent Florida has shown up with his hair in more than a dozen unique braided styles that fit under his helmet over the years. He’d be thrilled to do the other Freelancers’ hair, but somehow no one ever takes him up on it.

(Princess Anne braid with braided bun - Dutch flower braid - crown braid)

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The “I’m a mercenary” post

cineresis:

Well, I guess this is as good a time as any to make a commission post, isn’t it. When I am getting all these new followers due to the adorable quirkiness that slips into ill-advised moments of candid admission. Strike when the iron is cute, as they say.

I’ve talked about how I’m pretty severely disabled a few times now. I’ve talked less (zero is less) about how I’m living in a rather toxic situation I’d like to get out of in the next couple of years if I can secure a living income. I’ve been getting a lot of writing done the past few months, so I’m going to open two (2) commission slots for stories under 3,000 words. These can be for anything: fandom (I know Homestuck, Pokémon, and Red vs Blue/Halo the best), OCs (fandom or otherwise), original work, or smut of any of the above. You can see what I’ve done on my Ao3 account and under the #my writing tag on my blog and decide if you want something like what I’ve done there.

Please be as detailed as possible when you make your request. If you have a target wordcount or wordcount range, please mention that; ditto for style/tone, specific headcanons, and anything else you can think of. If you’re requesting fic about OCs, any reference you have for them will help — detailed physical and personality descriptions, art, dialogue and other writing samples, etc. If I have any questions about how a character should react to something, I’ll check with you to make sure I’m characterising them in a way that’s satisfactory to you. I’ll also make any other revisions you request, within reason as defined arbitrarily by me. Rewriting the entire fic, for instance, is not within reason. If you’re that unhappy with what I’m producing after I’ve mostly completed it, I’ll refund you for half the commission cost.

For now, I’m going to charge US$1 per 100 words. (So if I write something that’s 1,865 words long, for instance, it’ll cost $18.) I will be charging more in the future, since the amount of time I spend on writing means that’s still well below minimum wage. I’ll ask at the time of your request whether you’re okay with me posting your commissioned fic publicly, and separately whether you’re okay with me posting it on my patreon. If you’re okay with your commission appearing on my patreon, I’ll halve the price of your commission. If you pledge at the $10 level or higher, your first commission will be free. To prevent possible issues, I will ask that you pledge at least until the end of the month in which I write your commission, after which I’ll refund the full price you paid for it; Patreon doesn’t charge patrons until the end of the month, which means it would be really easy to abuse that offer if I didn’t make that requirement. If you wish me to take your commission off my patreon, blog, or Ao3 at any point after the end of the month, I will do so.

I am still spending all my free time writing that novel-length Freelancer fanfic, that’s definitely still a thing that’s happening, so I don’t want to offer too many commissions that I have to prioritise over that until after I’ve completed it. I’ll probably continue to offer a couple commissions here and there until it’s done, but that will be based on how I’m feeling health- and time-wise. At the moment, I’m doing a lot of background writing comprising extensive technical notes in addition to character profiles and drabbles to get characterisation down. The first one I’m working on is for Agent South, and will appear on this blog; future ones, probably mainly or wholly for the very large number of OCs in this fic, will appear only on my patreon for people pledging $3 or more per publicly-posted fic. This is an incentive.

Both my email and my paypal are ryodansai@gmail.com. To send a commission request, please email me with the subject line “CINERESIS COMMISSIONS” (capslock optional). Unless your commission is under 500 words in length, I’ll ask for a $5 down payment at the time that I approve your request, with the remainder paid upon completion. To make sure you’re comfortable with making a partial payment in advance, I’ll keep you updated continuously as I work on your fic unless you request that I chill on the emails. Depending on the length of the fic and how healthy or busy I am, it may take a while to complete, and I know it’s not very comfortable being in the dark on that front. If I’m not comfortable with writing your request or feel that I’m not capable of it, I’ll let you know right away with no judgments made. Things I’m uncomfortable writing include but are not necessarily limited to: fiction about living people; detailed sexual situations involving underage characters; highly technical subjects I’m not versed in; and stories to which the lived experiences of groups I’m not part of (POC, members of organised religions, people with certain disabilities or mental illnesses, survivors of sexual assault, cultures I know very little about) are central — which is not to say that I can’t write about characters who belong to those groups, just that I can’t, for instance, write a story that centers on a black character’s experience with racism, because I don’t know what that’s like and I’d prefer not to get it wrong or co-opt the voices of people who have had those experiences.

TL;DR:
EMAIL AND PAYPAL: ryodansai@gmail.com

Use subject line “CINERESIS COMMISSIONS” when requesting.
PRICE: $1 per 100 words.
$5 down payment required at time of commissioning unless your commission is under 500 words.
50% off for commissions that can appear on Patreon.
Free for Patreon backers pledging $10 or more.

Commission slots:
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anneapocalypse:

I don’t have enough followers for this to have ever been an issue for me, and it’s probable I never will. But I’m going to say it anyway so that it has been said here and it stands until the end of time.

Do not ever send somebody anon hate as a way of “defending” me.

Better yet, play it safe and do not ever send somebody any kind of anonymous message “defending” me. 

Do not ever harass or wish harm on somebody because they disagreed or argued with me, no matter how wrong you think they are.

I don’t care if I have two followers, I never ever want someone to feel that they were dogpiled by me or by people who follow me.

Do not do it.

If you are not sure that you can avoid doing that, then please depart, because those are the ground rules on this blog and always will be.

(This is risible. Try fantasy instead.)

"So what is it?"

Quianzu stared at the display dominating her field of vision. Her eyes were shadowed, as if she’d had too little sleep over the past few days, which of course she had. Her short hair, ruffled from inconvenient and occasionally nabbed catnaps, lay flat in a field of more than negligible gravity for only the ninth day in two years. Without answering, she flexed her brain and sent the test results she was viewing to her companion. The data travelled through the wifi network that invisibly permeated the whole biodome and was replicated in the chip implanted into said companion’s skull, as hard speculative fiction is required to explain in gorily gratuitous detail the workings of every bit of technology to those who in-universe are presumed to know it and which to future readers of the more accurate type will seem blatantly obvious. Be glad this isn’t a dialogic question and answer session.

"Human," he responded to his own question, his tone impossible to read. Perhaps wonder. Or perturbation. After only nine days of not having to worry about cleaning floating beard hairs out of everyone’s meals in outer space his facial hair was making a glorious comeback. Already it was halfway to the collar of his futuristic silver jumpsuit, which really did not flatter his figure. His name was Zazzerpan. He was a scientist, who did science.

"Human," repeated Quianzu, pointlessly.

"Hmm." Zazzerpan hummed portentously. It was a very impressive hum. You probably had to be there.

Both stared for some time at the pallid youth in the quarantine cubicle. Ze stared back at them — or at where they were, on the other side of a pane of one-way glass. Their society had developed FTL space travel and implanted supercomputers in babies’ heads at birth, but one-way glass is a comfortingly familiar technology to modern explorers treading helplessly the turgidity of futuristic milieu.

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The “I’m a mercenary” post

Well, I guess this is as good a time as any to make a commission post, isn’t it. When I am getting all these new followers due to the adorable quirkiness that slips into ill-advised moments of candid admission. Strike when the iron is cute, as they say.

I’ve talked about how I’m pretty severely disabled a few times now. I’ve talked less (zero is less) about how I’m living in a rather toxic situation I’d like to get out of in the next couple of years if I can secure a living income. I’ve been getting a lot of writing done the past few months, so I’m going to open two (2) commission slots for stories under 3,000 words. These can be for anything: fandom (I know Homestuck, Pokémon, and Red vs Blue/Halo the best), OCs (fandom or otherwise), original work, or smut of any of the above. You can see what I’ve done on my Ao3 account and under the #my writing tag on my blog and decide if you want something like what I’ve done there.

Please be as detailed as possible when you make your request. If you have a target wordcount or wordcount range, please mention that; ditto for style/tone, specific headcanons, and anything else you can think of. If you’re requesting fic about OCs, any reference you have for them will help — detailed physical and personality descriptions, art, dialogue and other writing samples, etc. If I have any questions about how a character should react to something, I’ll check with you to make sure I’m characterising them in a way that’s satisfactory to you. I’ll also make any other revisions you request, within reason as defined arbitrarily by me. Rewriting the entire fic, for instance, is not within reason. If you’re that unhappy with what I’m producing after I’ve mostly completed it, I’ll refund you for half the commission cost.

For now, I’m going to charge US$1 per 100 words. (So if I write something that’s 1,865 words long, for instance, it’ll cost $18.) I will be charging more in the future, since the amount of time I spend on writing means that’s still well below minimum wage. I’ll ask at the time of your request whether you’re okay with me posting your commissioned fic publicly, and separately whether you’re okay with me posting it on my patreon. If you’re okay with your commission appearing on my patreon, I’ll halve the price of your commission. If you pledge at the $10 level or higher, your first commission will be free. To prevent possible issues, I will ask that you pledge at least until the end of the month in which I write your commission, after which I’ll refund the full price you paid for it; Patreon doesn’t charge patrons until the end of the month, which means it would be really easy to abuse that offer if I didn’t make that requirement. If you wish me to take your commission off my patreon, blog, or Ao3 at any point after the end of the month, I will do so.

I am still spending all my free time writing that novel-length Freelancer fanfic, that’s definitely still a thing that’s happening, so I don’t want to offer too many commissions that I have to prioritise over that until after I’ve completed it. I’ll probably continue to offer a couple commissions here and there until it’s done, but that will be based on how I’m feeling health- and time-wise. At the moment, I’m doing a lot of background writing comprising extensive technical notes in addition to character profiles and drabbles to get characterisation down. The first one I’m working on is for Agent South, and will appear on this blog; future ones, probably mainly or wholly for the very large number of OCs in this fic, will appear only on my patreon for people pledging $3 or more per publicly-posted fic. This is an incentive.

Both my email and my paypal are ryodansai@gmail.com. To send a commission request, please email me with the subject line “CINERESIS COMMISSIONS” (capslock optional). Unless your commission is under 500 words in length, I’ll ask for a $5 down payment at the time that I approve your request, with the remainder paid upon completion. To make sure you’re comfortable with making a partial payment in advance, I’ll keep you updated continuously as I work on your fic unless you request that I chill on the emails. Depending on the length of the fic and how healthy or busy I am, it may take a while to complete, and I know it’s not very comfortable being in the dark on that front. If I’m not comfortable with writing your request or feel that I’m not capable of it, I’ll let you know right away with no judgments made. Things I’m uncomfortable writing include but are not necessarily limited to: fiction about living people; detailed sexual situations involving underage characters; highly technical subjects I’m not versed in; and stories to which the lived experiences of groups I’m not part of (POC, members of organised religions, people with certain disabilities or mental illnesses, survivors of sexual assault, cultures I know very little about) are central — which is not to say that I can’t write about characters who belong to those groups, just that I can’t, for instance, write a story that centers on a black character’s experience with racism, because I don’t know what that’s like and I’d prefer not to get it wrong or co-opt the voices of people who have had those experiences.

TL;DR:
EMAIL AND PAYPAL: ryodansai@gmail.com

Use subject line “CINERESIS COMMISSIONS” when requesting.
PRICE: $1 per 100 words.
$5 down payment required at time of commissioning unless your commission is under 500 words.
50% off for commissions that can appear on Patreon.
Free for Patreon backers pledging $10 or more.

Commission slots:
1. open
2. open

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god yeah okay i registered metatextuality the other day when i realised the ocd thing was really getting in the way of me interacting with anyone i didn’t already know on twitter and i think i’m going to start using it so that i can get rid of my delete later tag. so follow that blog if you want to see more of me talking about my gay feelings for agent south dakota and whatever else i guess. i’ll get a theme for it and such when i can get on the computer at some point

hell’s bells i have made so many posts this week trying to figure out a way to talk to people without using this blog, sorry, it has been pretty experimental all over

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hungoverskeletonguy:

cineresis has a cool rvb character, hell yeah 

IT’S UTAH (everyone should commission ray!!)

hungoverskeletonguy:

cineresis has a cool rvb character, hell yeah 

IT’S UTAH (everyone should commission ray!!)

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i just realised that people might interpret the “uncomfortable with talking on my blog” thing and the “getting into really personal details thing” as a hint not to reblog those posts, which was totally the opposite of my intention. using my blog only to post fanwork or reply to asks is just an ocd thing that makes me ultra anxious when i trespass those bounds and evidently doesn’t apply to being reblogged or replying to people on their blogs (i have a lot of diagnoses). i intentionally used my personal experience to illustrate locus’s deal in as specific descriptive detail as possible because i felt that i lacked the ability to describe it effectively without doing that. as i said at the beginning of that post, i think it’s really important that this stuff is recognised about locus and in general where applicable (the treatment of depersonalised characters, for example).

so yeah please spread any of those posts around if you feel they are good and useful. though do not feel as if you are obliged to.

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Anonymous said: Do you have any other examples/anecdotes of what it's like to experience alexithymia? I'm sorry if that's a weird question. I don't want to portray it inaccurately in my writing, but I apologize if it's something you don't want to talk about for any reason

That is a good and appropriate question and I’m glad you decided to ask it. It’s a little hard for me to come up with specific examples at the moment (you’ll observe that I had to go back to last year for a properly illustrative one) but I’ll try to at least list some patterns. It should be noted that a majority of the details here are either my own experience or extrapolated from it, so it may not apply to everyone.

• Missing emotions: Anhedonia is a specific example mentioned in the alexithymia article. I mentioned an inability to feel hatred or rage. As far as I know, any emotion could fall into this category — humour, excitement, hope, grief, etc. I don’t experience anhedonia as part of my alexithymia, though I do when my chronic depression takes that particular form. Another emotion I just remembered not experiencing is grief: when my pet died recently, I felt guilt, sadness/sympathy for her, and concern for myself in the future when I wouldn’t have her around as a stabilising influence for my mental health, but other than that I felt no particular sense of loss even though I cared for her a great deal, and particularly not a persistent sense of loss. I idly considered the possibility that I might obsess over her/her death, but that ended up not happening.

• Muted emotions: As described, where most people would feel anger, I was incapable of experiencing any angry emotion stronger than frustration or irritation. (I’ve gotten better at it now, though it still is something that requires me to think a situation through to figure out that anger is an appropriate response before I start feeling it, and it takes a lot of effort to sustain and very seldom lasts beyond my conscious focus on it.) If sadness falls into this category, the strongest a person might feel is wistfulness or regret, for example. If it’s excitement, the strongest might be interest, which might be idle interest at the more muted end of things or engaged interest at the less muted end. People around a person with alexithymia might notice and question this — “Why aren’t you angry about this? I’d be furious,” to which the alexithymic person might respond, “Why would I get angry about something like this?” or “It doesn’t seem [worth getting angry about/worth the energy].” The alexithymic person might have a strong tendency to remove themself from whatever stimulus is causing a muted unpleasant emotion rather than addressing or trying to resolve either the situation or the emotion, since addressing either of those takes so much more energy than the emotion merits. Kind of like going inside to avoid mosquitoes instead of putting on bug spray and continuing to hang out outside. (I do this and it took me a very long time to figure out why others didn’t, and that often it’s not possible.) They might also/alternatively conclude that since they can continue without significant difficulty through the muted unpleasant emotions they feel, they can do it with any emotion, and they might wonder why other people are too weak or too bad at managing their emotions to be able to do the same. This was the majority of my school career and a major contributor to my PTSD, since I subjected myself to constant debilitatingly panic-inducing situations for years without thinking that might be odd.

ETA3: As far as I can tell, these two categories probably fall under what wikipedia calls “poorly differentiated emotions” that limit an alexithymic person’s ability to distinguish and describe those emotions to others. I included and specified those two categories by default because they’re the most significant part of my experience with alexithymia, and combined with the last bullet point (disconnect between mental and physical emotional response), are the reason I have so much trouble with the experience of emotion overall; the remaining bullet points, for me, result for the most part from those three factors, though for others the causality may be somewhat different as described in those paragraphs.

• Difficulty or inability identifying/describing internal emotional states: This is talked about in the wikipedia article — an alexithymic person might for instance be able to identify their emotional state with simple, broad terms like “happy” or “sad” but be unable to get any more specific, either due to difficulty/inability with identifying the emotion so that they can put words to it, or difficulty/inability with coming up with the appropriate word(s) to describe it even if they are able to internally recognise or understand what they’re feeling. This can sometimes be approached in a roundabout way like I do it, where instead of trying to identify the emotion I analyse all the aspects of the situation that might be causing it and list all of the thoughts and physical responses I’m having to it and compare all of those in order to reach a conclusion about what the emotion probably is and why I’m feeling it. If this particular aspect of alexithymia is severe enough, though, they might be incapable of identifying or describing emotions at all, which you can imagine would likely cause that person a lot of problems, especially if the emotions are strong and they’re incapable of processing or managing them effectively.

• Difficulty/inability imagining emotional responses to situations not currently occurring: This applies to both hypothetical situations and identifying or modeling emotions in other people. If someone can’t describe or identify how they feel about something actually happening to them at that moment, how can they be reasonably expected to do the same regarding something that isn’t even happening, that might never happen? How can they expected to imagine what they would feel in a situation someone else is experiencing when they don’t even know what they’re feeling in their own situation? This leads to impairments in empathy and human interaction, since they have difficulty/are unable to sense or consider other people’s emotions and might act rudely, dismissively, or otherwise inappropriately. Alternately, they might project their own muted or missing emotion on other people and assume those people are either pretending to feel those emotions or too foolish to recognise that what they think they’re feeling, or maybe actually are feeling, isn’t real or important. This is especially complicated because everyone does display emotions they don’t feel at one point or another with varying frequency, whether to be polite or avoid causing disruption or get others to do what they want or whatever other reason. Which in turn might lead to the alexithymic person imitating emotion they don’t feel for the same purposes.

• Disconnect between mental and physical emotional response: An alexithymic person might feel very strong emotion, but their face, body language, and/or voice reveal nothing, or a muted version of what a neurotypical person might reveal. Alternately, their body, voice, and facial expression might react strongly in the manner and degree they would to a neurotypical person feeling the corresponding emotion, but the alexithymic person might feel something completely different, or nothing at all. This is, I believe, very common in autistic people, especially those who are on the more profoundly affected end of the autistic spectrum, and for whom it’s common to (for example) laugh loudly when they’re frightened or upset, or to look scared when they’re excited. I’m strongly affected by both the feeling something/expressing nothing and the feeling nothing/expressing something versions of this; as far as I know, I’m not affected by the feeling something/expressing something else version. I’m very visually unexpressive, though I think my vocal expressiveness has increased significantly since I was a teen. All of this is frequently likely to lead to very irritating interactions with neurotypical people when they read the wrong subtext into what an alexithymic person is saying because their face/body/voice are communicating different emotions than they would be if they were neurotypical. ETA3: The disconnect between internal mental and external physical states often results in alexithymic people calling their bodies/treating them as robotic/a vehicle/a meat shell/etc. A friend of mine refers to moving his body as piloting it. When you have to consciously make your body do things that other peoples’ seem to do naturally, and when it keeps doing things that have nothing to do with what you want it to do, you tend to think of it as separate from the you that is your brain, just as you might tend to think of all that weird and inexplicable emotion stuff that keeps happening as separate from the you that is your conscious thought processes. It’s easy not to think of your face as something that belongs to the you you when it doesn’t reflect your internal self consistently or at all.

I’ve almost definitely forgotten things, and I’ll edit this post to include them when I remember. I think I covered quite thoroughly the effect that all of these things have on an alexithymic’s potential approach to their own emotions and those of others in the Locus post, so I won’t repeat that here. I hope this is helpful and am willing to try answering any other questions if I am able.

ETA: I’ve been editing the various bullet points on this post since I put it up as I continue to think of more things to add, and here’s something that doesn’t fit into any of them: for me, and probably for a lot of alexithymic people, my difficulty with identifying emotions is highly variable. Some emotions, like happiness and excitement, are very strong and obvious and I have no trouble with them. Others, usually the muted emotions but also anxiety and panic, can be very difficult to notice or identify unless I do that analysing-physical-responses thing I described. So it’s not a single across-the-board impairment but based on the emotion, the intensity of that emotion, and the situation I’m feeling it in.

ETA2: I spent a little time looking at what other people with alexithymia say about it and apparently other non-emotional physical sensations, like sleepiness and hunger, can be similarly hard/impossible to identify. This matches my experience — I have a very strict mental list of things to watch for that mean I’m tired and need to sleep, which I’m not unlikely to miss even then; same for eating, though that specifically is exacerbated by my SSRI. I keep a very strict schedule with eating to make sure that I don’t just forget and then wonder why I can’t keep my head up twelve hours later, and would do the same with sleep if a sleep disorder didn’t make that impossible. This kind of scheduling strikes me very strongly as something Locus would do, as he’s very likely dissociated from his body but would recognise that he needs to keep it in optimal condition in order to maintain maximum effectiveness.

ETA3: A few more things…

• Feelings of defectiveness or alienation: When you’re obviously missing cognitive processes that every other person seems to have, it’s hard not to feel like you were shipped off the assembly line while still incomplete. I grew up very aware that people were talking familiarly about a lot of emotions and related experiences as if everyone had them and that I’d never encountered at all. I thought of myself as having been behind the door when they handed out anger, empathy, sexuality, and an understanding of gender as well as a lot of other social constructs. This coexists with the feelings of inhuman superiority I’ve described in kind of a weird way, where I wondered about and at times vaguely envied or resented other people for having these universal things that I didn’t, while I simultaneously was pleased (sometimes vindictively) that I was made without all these stupid useless functions that made everyone who had them act like irrational idiots. “I bet you’re enjoying your human emotions now,” I would think smugly when all those people with an F in their MBTI types ended up falling on their asses as an obvious and inevitable result of granting validity— even, confoundingly and appallingly, more validity than to logic and rationality! — to those feelings they were so proud of, the jackasses. Maybe they’d learn from the experience and see that I was correct all along, as I’d been saying at every opportunity and thinking when the opportunity was unavailable, because I was autistic as hell.

This isn’t one of the patterns of alexithymic experience, but the sections on missing/muted emotions reminded me that while I don’t think Locus has anhedonia, since we see him displaying satisfaction when he fulfills his intentions effectively, I’m very sure that happiness is one of his muted emotions. Doing his job on Chorus is basically the time of his life, everything he wants to do, and we never see him display any positive emotion stronger than satisfaction. That single huff of satisfaction he does when things go exactly his way is probably the closest to laughter we’ll ever get out of him.

One time last year I fell on my way down a set of concrete steps while it was raining and scraped the epidermis off my palms and knees through my jeans. It took me a full five minutes to figure out that I was crying because it hurt like a motherfuck, not because I was upset that I’d fallen. Try writing that into your interesting neurodivergent Locus characterisation.

(No, seriously, please do. I’d love to see weird alexithymia stuff with him if it’s pulled off well.)

That whole Locus issue

This is right after I talked about being uncomfortable with talking on my blog, but it’s important, especially after the very recent issues in the fandom regarding mental illness.

Locus has a lot of autistic traits. Like, a lot.

I’m going to state from the beginning that none of this is an excuse for Locus’s actions, or even a valid explanation for a lot of them. Locus is an intelligent person who is capable of making informed value judgements, and who knowingly decided to kill a lot of people. Autistic people need rules in order to function in a world that is not made for them, algorithms by which they can execute behaviours, which they may not be able to instinctively recognise and might need explicitly spelled out to them. An autistic person might need to be told that it’s not nice to hurt people because it didn’t occur to them on their own, but with few exceptions unless certain comorbid mental illnesses are involved (according to wikipedia, anyway; correct me if I’m in error) they’re able to grasp concepts like that if they have the ability to grasp other rules of interaction.

This gets both spoilery and personal, so I’m putting it under a cut for the sake of friends who haven’t caught up yet. Please read it if you care about Locus and/or neurodiversity in RvB. Talk of autism spectrum disorders, PTSD, and ableism. (I’m posting this from mobile, so here’s hoping nothing fucks up. It ended up at over 3k words long. Sorry. I think I managed to make it mostly organised, at least.)

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so it’s pretty obvious that I’m not really comfortable with tumblr as a platform, or with talking much on my blog. If any of my followers are on twitter, though, i’ve just created @metatextual so that I can talk about rvb stuff without spoiling friends who haven’t caught up. Feel free to send a follow request if you wish — if I don’t accept it, that’s no reflection on you, just an indication of my level of comfort talking about fandom stuff publicly, and if I follow you or have interacted with you before i’ll most likely say yes. If it’s not obvious that the account you’re following with is you, it’d be best to send an ask just mentioning that you’re the one who sent the request.

ok cool I think that’s everything. uh. I have a skype but since I don’t tend to initiate conversations I’m not on it much. same principles apply there, I guess, drop me an ask and if I’m comfortable i’ll give it to you, though i may have to be nudged to get online if you want to talk.

thanks

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cineresis:

cineresis:

So anyway, while I’m feeling copacetic with putting my nonfiction text words on tumblr:

In the process of writing The Longfic, I’ve accidentally fallen in love with a number of characters I never gave much thought to before, which, you know, happens. This includes South (who, for all of the compliments I’ve gotten for how I write her, never really caught my attention until Way Ahead Way Behind and everyone else’s South Dakota Defense Squad posts), Utah (gay married with Georgia, do not EVEN fight me), and the Counselor.

(Oh my gosh, the Counselor. Oh my fucking gosh. Did you know he’s an ENTP fronting as an INFP and you can tell by how he directs and balances his priorities on the relevant axes? DO YOU KNOW HOW NEAT THAT IS. Have you thought about how straight-up intellectually brilliant he must be to juggle everything he does behind the scenes that is implied by his onscreen activities, like really thought about it in detail.)

But seriously that makes me wonder how popular the Counselor is. South is of course a fucking queen and I’ve seen a couple people who are really attached to Utah but as far as I know, there’s no unique tag for the Counselor that I can use to search for fanwork with him. While he tends to appear in certain Freelancer fics, I don’t think I’ve seen any fanart of him or anything with him as a central character (which, in the case of him not appearing centrally, is as it should be — he is by nature and inclination someone who does not make himself prominent except as required and focuses on causes rather than his inner world, unless he’s doing far more acting than we already know him to be doing). I know @epsilongrif has mentioned liking him, and it makes logical sense to me that he would have gotten fandom attention when he appeared in s6, but I’m a noob and therefore don’t actually know of any evidence that might support that.

oh, and i forgot to add when I wrote this: where the FUCK is all the director/counselor porn

THIS FANDOM CONSTITUENCY DEMANDS ANSWERS

do you think i am fucking around about the porn, tumblr? i am not even within the vicinity of fucking around.

you made a fanon ship out of”that’s the spirit, knew you had it in you” but the director and the counselor HABITUALLY PICK UP EACH OTHER’S SENTENCES

I DEMAND CONSISTENCY

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